Wednesday, 28 August 2013

Gaming girls, nerd culture, who gives a damn?

Just an entertaining thought I recently had: We go berserk about "OMG, a girl who can play games" or something. But today is the day of gaming and being "nerdish" and stuff is mainstream. It's no big deal. You can easily find girls in front of computers, playing games and such, or the other mainstream lamebook stuff. Or in my home country where the netcafes where crazy places like arcade rooms, not what you think, it was new years eve and you saw people on netcafes and that was weird. And really good looking girls too. It's not something crazy today. It even becomes mainstream.

And the full aspect of the entertaining thought was: Why are we getting surprised that someone can play a game? What's the fuzz of "Omg, I play zelda, I am such a geek!"? You are doing the easiest thing in the world!!! The easiiiiesttt thing in the wooorld!!!!!!!

You know when I play games? When everything else has fallen apart! When I can't work, I am too lazy to do house work, even too lazy to go out for a walk. There are many distractions and those have the form of the easiest falloff, like the path of the least possible energy, where things most easily go when you don't try at all. And gaming is one of the easiest paths of all! I am not saying that we shouldn't game. I love gaming! But it's just funny to think "OMG, that girl is a gamer, this is ingenious!". It's funny to be surprised. Anymore..

And that's the other entertaining fact there: Why, oh why, years ago it really was that special to even find male people into just even gaming? I mean,. it was so rare, that you could consider some writer on a gaming magazine like a god (while I would have considered this for some early programmers, having admiration for gaming gods is hilarious). Because nobody was into it! It was just so rare. You didn't need to be a coder. Being a gamer and maybe also fix other people's computers (No, I am not gonna fix your computer t-shirt comes in mind :) and you were a guru.

But why? Why didn't people got into gaming then? I mean, even just gaming. Is it because of non user friendly DOS and memory managers and IRQs and stuff? Maybe,. but it doesn't seem to me like a big deal. Ok,. things where harder, but games were always awesome. But you just had to learn how to setup your autoexec.bat and config.sys and that's it! No more brainiac stuff. I do believe it's the cultural thing mostly. It was uncool. It wasn't mainstream. If you were into it, you were either jokingly called a hacker by ignorant people or most of the times a nerd or geek in the negative sense.

But it just entertains me. I had something about coder girls and it's still inspiring but they do exist and why not? But gaming people being something worth attention? The easiest thing in the world!!! The last resort of my laziness..

And then I was inspired by this one, says about culture and stuff although I didn't felt that bad about Big Bang Theory, and also I didn't exactly agree with his Borderlands review (Oh,. I didn't know though Jesper Kyd was behind the music. And big surprise, the art style and theme and even scenes are "inspired" (ripped? who cares..) from some unknown (to me) anime, codehunters. Wow! That's so close!

p.s. And I really like that meme!
p.p.s. Don't misunderstand, I don't want to be mean to girls into our hobbies though. This post is not about that..
p.p.p.s. If you love what you do, just do it. You don't necessary need to identify yourself with a title. But we do need that sometimes, eh?

Friday, 26 April 2013


I am usually mad at common misconceptions that have somehow won people's opinions that they sound like self-evident. Ideas that you hear everyone reciting and just because everyone is saying that, it must be true. It's annoying how self-evidently these ideas are recited without trying to understand what they mean and how accurate they are, how strong they become because they are bound to be so now that everyone says so. And while they might have some merit, they don't feel absolutely so true if you try to make sense of them.

One common such idea that I am too tired to listen every once and then, when I happen to discuss something with a friend and suddenly mention "Oh,. I also read in wikipedia that blah blah...". And then he responds instinctively the same parroted words: "Wikipedia is not a reliable source, it's inaccurate, anyone can edit, blah blah..". Arghh!!! And what are the sources that you are proposing then? The local library? The university? Someone at NASA? What are the sources about specific subjects that you don't have direct access, and your best friend for that is the internet?

It depends on the subject. Of course I know the saying that you should not reference wikipedia in a scientific paper. Even wikipedia says so. Wikipedia articles are just a simple start up with a subject that also cites the original sources used. But the classic saying, "wikipedia is oh so faulty" occurs so robotically, like a Godwin's law, even when discussing about trivial information that are easy to verify or insignificant claims. And the absolute way they recite this saying gives you the impression that wikipedia is an extremely bad source of information, one of the worse on the internet. Which is not true, quite the contrary. Wikipedia is for me one of the best sources on the internet!

Why am I saying that? Whenever I hear about a new term, organization, person or anything I immediately reach wikipedia first. One would say, that is because it's good head start the easy way on a subject and then one can continue with linking to the references. One reason is this but there is more juice. Sometimes you can't be sure about something from different sources, because each source is opinionated or has different agendas. Wikipedia is maintained by thousand of users, each obsessed with different topics, trying to be as insanely correct as possible about each subject. Which of course can also lead to quarrels too, but it's resolved by several people and their different views might be blend (or not). It's as good as it can get given the nature of the internet. And sometimes you get a broader and more complete article where it says "The definition for this is A, but it's disputed by some other people, while that guy said it's C [citation needed]".

Search for example for the definition of hacking for example on the internet. Confusing! Information wants to be free, mentor's manifest, revolution,. no script kids they are, but there are true hackers, the others are called crackers,. confusing opinionated things, each site tells a different story. And that's where the wikipedia article shines! It says something like "1) Used to be the MIT guys, or a state of mind of creative people,. 2) then the computer hobbyists, 3) now the computer network intruders by the media,. etc. And these guys dispute the definition, while the other guys said about this, etc..". And then the history and then all the whole bunch of links and references. At least you get the whole image, what it is, what it was, what are the different opinions, how it changed through history, in a neat article that tries to be not too big yet covers the most important information for the basic understanding of the subject. Another example would be to learn about a company or organization you just heard about. Would you say that the best plan is to visit the organization's website? Of course, at first, depends on what you are searching too. But what if you want to have a more spherical objective view, rather than only positive promotion on the company's website? What if what you are searching is not "We have the best products, 20 years of positive experience, the happiest and most productive personel, blah blah" but raw words like "This company was started by that guy at 1980, in 1990 they produce that but didn't sell well, at 1998 there was a scandal with the CEO, blah blah". This is what I like in wikipedia! A good head start, raw words, factlike, no agenda towards only one direction, different views presented in a neutral way and additionally references to external link if you want to verify the facts.

When most of our sources come from the internet today (depending on the subject of course) and wikipedia has all these qualities (and if it doesn't, at least it's a good starting point) how can you say that it is a bad source? Then most of the rest of the internet are worse. Unless you believe that the internet itself is a bad source of information. Says the person who uses it everyday to read or spread information. How generic is that? The internet is you and me and everyone of us. It's like saying that people and their sayings are a bad source of information. Then what is left? This is the same as that old again robotic saying that users in Pouet are 95% illiterate and have nothing to do with the scene? WHAT? But Pouet is the ONLY such big demoscene community site where people come together, with discussions and everything! Pouet IS demoscene on the internet (but not in real life). Why do people say such things from mouth to mouth without thinking a bit? How can 95% at Pouet be irrelevant with the scene? And are the people who do these claims in the 5%? Then what the hell are they doing in a site that is 95% non scene related? I know that more than 95% who frequent there have produced something for the scene. But 95% of people kept reciting the same old song :P

Don't misunderstand me. I am not saying that wikipedia or the internet is the GOD. I am not saying it's 100% infallible. It's just as right as humans can be. When I am mentioning that I read something on wikipedia, I am not saying that it must be true. I am saying that I read something in some source (being the internet or not, it's irrelevant) and wondering what the other person has to say about this information. The stupid way would be to answer "The information is bullshit, because wikipedia is unreliable" and the more mature would be "I think this information is not correct because of this and that reason, regardless where you read it". Hell, it wouldn't even make the information more reliable even if I heard it from a person of high authority. It's like the old quarrels in debates, "I have 2 masters, 3 PHDs, I am the best in my domain, so you are totally wrong and stupid!" :P

Classic fallacy I guess, blaming the messenger instead of trying to understand and verify the message.

Wednesday, 30 January 2013

Brutal Doom pistol/rifle compo.

Because many people have requested for this (the MOD is not mine btw, but you can't easily find it here (found from here). If there is a problem I might upload it somewhere else in the future.

No picture of the pistol found, sorry I have to get back to work :)

p.s. This blog should be more active. I have so many stuff to write. At least 3-4-5 games that occupied me the last year and are worth a mention. And some demo reviews possibly too..

Sunday, 20 January 2013

GCW Zero rants

So, it's going very well now, after the upgrade of the hardware specs, a sudden spark of bids that I cannot explain came because for me the additional ram and storage is not very important but cool anyway. The biggest thing would be an upgrade of the LCD. Although I am used with 320*240, higher resolutions would be interesting to code demos and see how they perform. But not entirely necessary for the gamepark/dingoo community. I think another thing that is missing is a touch display, maybe only important if you want to properly play ScummVM or specific touch games I liked from my Caanoo. But anyway, you can't have anything and any change on the LCD might need more time redesigning the hardware, writing drivers and more costs too. As my latest favorite homebrew handheld was the Caanoo, it will fill like I am missing something, even though most software didn't make use of it.

Many argue that the resolution and memory was such a put-off, also the absence of a second analog stick. As I am coming from the gamepark/dingoo communities where even 64MB were enough for emulation I don't get the feeling that 256MBs are few. The first edition of Raspberry Pi had 256MBs of RAM. If you see the specs of many later or even modern game consoles, you will be surprised at how little RAM they had. One argued that indie devs won't optimize their game and 256MB would be too few. Well, if you have seen the quality and scale most of the homebrew games, they are very basic 2d stuff and they already played well on the old 64MB devices. Quake 3 needs 64MB Ram. Who is going to write such a big title on GCW? Even PS3 had 512MB ram, with the GCW spec updates we are up to par.

I think the resolution can be more put-off, it's one of the specs that actually never changed since GP32! Yes, the 800*480 of the Pandora would be a great asset, but I am personally content with what it is and for me it's like a more powerful Caanoo where finally the community gathers again. I know there are chinese android devices more powerful and cheaper than this, but those are released as new models, they have not a concentrated community (they do have the android market, but not the feeling of a specialized community coding stuff for exactly a single one handheld). As for the resolution, did you know that your Nintendo DS has 256*192? Just like my Spectrum 48k! And the games were awesome!!! We just don't realize it because the screen is small. Graphics looked so cool with the 320*240 resolution in all the past handhelds. Little problem for some emulated hardware that sometimes use higher resolution modes (SNES has higher resolution modes (512*240 and some interlaced), PSX has a 640*480 iirc, even my beloved Amstrad CPC has 640*200 in Mode 2 and goes way more with overscan screen). Those are rare cases though and I think I have still enjoyed some Mode 2 screens on a CPC emulator on Caanoo already. Maybe a higher resolution would be handy with web browsing, though this is not the main reason for buying the GCW0 (I just bought a Google Nexus 7 tablet for that).

As for the second analogue stick? Sorry, I am not into XBOX/PS3 FPS games, I am not gonna play modern FPS with this device (I would prefer mouse and keyboard controls on PC), I mostly liked the ports of PC fps on such device as a technical achievement rather than something I would play. And to tell you the truth, especially old FPS like Doom or Quake played well enough even in my GP32 with only two fire buttons on the right! Or so I think..

I guess the GCW0 is for a specific kind of people who already understand what the machine is meaned to be, who know the history of the open handheld communities from gamepark/dingoo times, and want something new with a strong community, for emu/homebrew gaming and retro game programming too. At first I was afraid this kickstarter would fail because there are few homebrew fans out there who would distinct this from your average android handheld (and the lame Neogeo-X who just has publicity and is the same chipset as GCW0 I learn, but locked to play only 20 Neo Geo games, overpriced too) but I see the reality is different, the support is great and hopefully this will live for long.

Maybe if this is successful enough and the creators want to go for a GCW1 then we might see a higher res and touch screen (which is the only thing that would be a big up to me right now) but let's see this one first develop a great community, might make me want to go back to coding something new for this device instead of just ports of my old demos. I'd like to make a game..

Thursday, 10 January 2013

GCW Zero

GCW-Zero: Open Source Gaming Handheld -- Kicktraq Mini

Finally! I really hope this project goes well. I backed up the 160$ (+ 20$ post) because I really want this one and it was little above 135$ (the least you can give to also preorder the handheld). I know, too much you will say. People tell me, why this when you can get a cheap phone? Because I hate touch. I can't play emuls with touch. Oh,. but you can add that hardware joypad that attaches to phones. I am not going to carry another controller among my phone with me!

I am talking about the niche category: homebrew handheld from community, not even commercial one that might be able to run homebrew (They tell me PSP is enough for emulation why do you need Caanoo? I haven't unlocked my PSP yet because it's too much work, my BIOS was updated and I have to find another one with broken PSP or something, fuck that shit!)

And I am talking about a homebrew made by the community supported by the community. I know there were some cheaper chinese android handhelds that even played N64 well, but these were not supported, nobody knows them, the chinese company makes many series of them instead of concentrating in a single one.

We needed something like a successor to Dingoo/Gamepark. Something for the homebrew console community (not touch, not android, just classic gamepark style!). Pandora failed to deliver and was too expensive. But now we have GCW Zero!

Some info
Kickstarter link

p.s. Once ago I wondered about the community and whether it would be nice to have an appstore. Well,. gamegadget (regardless if it was as powerful as an old dingoo) didn't go well (and I've heard the company didn't behave well), nD is for laughs (where?), so forget all that stuff and have the GCW Zero from several members of the community (see the kickstarter for a list). This is a more serious attempt. Scene gonna move!
p.p.s. Other good news. My old classic GP32 had died in 2008. I just decided to buy one used from Ebay. Not telling you how much I payed. But I really miss the nostalgy and there isn't even a proper emulator. I am just waiting for it!